Light and Love are filling me up..

     Of those of you that have watched me grow up or even just those who have known me since high school, you know that religion was never something that I talked about or wanted to explore. I would go to church with my Marmar aka Gramma aka Grandma when I was still too small to see past my hands reach but it was more about getting all dressed up and wearing some pretty necklace of hers and drawing on the back of the bulletin. Never about creating a relationship with Jesus. I've asked both my parents many questions about why they never took me to church growing up and the answers just fell short with several bad excuses. Being from a divorced family and never at the same house on Sundays was one. 

     After starting Alpha, a beginners study group at a local church, I realized that I didn't even know that the 10 commandments were from the Bible and on top of that.. I didn't know what they all were. My dad apologized for that one. 

     

     I was very unsure about church and praying in the beginning but now it's something I talk about everyday. I pray for things throughout the days and even people I don't have in my life anymore. I thank God for little things in my life, like my flowers growing and the sun shining and the wind blowing my new wind chime around. I've found that focusing on these little things alone can bring me so much joy. Sometimes I can sit by myself on the couch and stare out the window and just smile. And a little bit joy goes a long way. Everyone needs joy. I like to think I've met some joy warriors in the past few months. 

     With all that said, I want to let everyone how happy I am with my life right now. I'm so full of love and appreciation for everything and everyone around me. Lately I've been going over some unsettling things from my past that I need to let go of and everyday I ask got to show me the person he sees and everyday I see myself a little clearer. I was sitting here making a list of things I want to do this weekend, and my eyes were just.. open. Open soo wide. I know I'm experiencing some serious joy and peace when my eyes open up and I feel like I'm letting something wonderful in. Something bright that I don't get to see often.

     I feel very light and full of love today, and I wanted to look and see if there were any verses in the Bible describing what I feel. I went to http://www.biblegateway.com/ and searched "life light" and this verse below came up. Not exactly what I was looking for but I think it's pretty and meaningful just the same. 

John 1:3-5 (Contemporary English Version)

³And with this Word,
   God created all things.
   Nothing was made
   without the Word.
   Everything that was created
    ⁴received its life from him,
   and his life gave light
   to everyone.
    ⁵The light keeps shining
   in the dark,
   and darkness has never
   put it out.

   I pray that everyone experiences some light and joy in there life today whether they recognize it as a gift from god or simply as a good day.