The thoughts of a certain someone will not leave my head. I know it's been a tough day and I should just go to bed and let sleep sort everything out but instead I'm still awake. I keep praying that God will send me the person I am supposed to be most happy with and where it hasn't bothered me being single for all this time, it is weighing on me pretty good now. I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow so I've got to get this out now or it might keep me from sleeping all through the night.
I fell in love with someone who left. Someone who never liked me as much as I liked him. It broke me. I see him and my heart freaks out.. beats violently in my chest till I distract myself with someone else less important. It's been some time since the accidental heartbreak and where my heart still aches for the love I thought I'd found, I'm doing alright. Well for some reason, during last sunday's sermon, it hit me like something fierce. I just want to love and be loved in return. I should have already used that four letter word but I haven't. I've heard it but never felt the same way towards the person. That hurts too btw.. not being able to use those three little words. God I am very grateful that you have helped me get a job and get accepted into the Culinary Management program. I love being able to say, "I'm a culinary student" and that "I have work." If I'm not busy enough, you'd think I wouldn't wish to find someone who would take up the rest of my free time, but that's not the case apparently. Maybe I don't know what I'm wishing for but I obviously don't care.
I'm hoping that having a job will bring new people into my life and then when I start school, I will be put together with other people who share my passion. Staying home all this time hasn't helped me meet people.. even with the occasional trip to the bookstore.. ;)
Okay.. apparently watching the previews for Lisa Kudrow's new show has turned my frown completely right side up. :) Going to bed.. this may be deleted soon.. need to stay positive.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Friday, July 8, 2011
Little Working Girl..
Ha! Sounds funny when I say that but I am now employed.. just sounds boring. I love that I have a job now. I will be able to contribute at home and save money for school. Publix seems like a great place to work and the other cashiers I worked with today are very very cool. :)
I started cashiering last tuesday afternoon after my computer training and then did 5 hours on the register Wednesday which was pretty tough. I haven't spent that long on my feet in a while.. at least not with out periodical trip from my kitchen to the couch for a break. My feet were a little tired but after an Advil and some of grandma's cooking and I was good as new. Got to spend the night with my cousins and then get some sun the next day. Great day off.
Today was my second full day of cashiering and it was a breeze. My lower back hurt a little around 4 but I pushed through it. I didn't give anyone wrong change and I only forgot to give someone a bag once but I caught him before he was out the day so it was all in all a great day. We have good baggers that show up out of no where when you need them and good managers that can always be reached when there's a problem.
Tomorrow I will be training with the Meal Specialist trainer for Apron's all day. I'll be at the store from 8:30am to 5pm. I am told that the woman is nice but a little demanding so I'm hoping she will be in a good mood tomorrow for me. :) I'm going to get in bed early enough tonight so I can be fully awake in the morning.. and I will be definitely setting the coffee maker up tonight so I can be alert along with awake. ;)
I met the weekday Apron's woman today. Her name is Lisa and she is very nice. She told me a little bit about how she works and how the meals are prepared. I found out that every Publix store makes the same meals day to day. I wish they made desserts but I'm sure they don't. There is a convection/ microwave oven, mini fridge and sink in the Apron's station and you do everything in the station.. including all the prep work. I'm pretty excited to get started.
On a scale of 1 to 10. 10 being the best. I was at a 8.75 when I got home at 5:15pm. That was mainly due to being hungry but after having a snack/ small meal I'm feeling pretty good. Just relaxing on my awesome oversized chair, watching the news and checking my stuff online.
I'm waiting to hear from FSCJ about my Culinary application. I heard from a woman last Friday. I hadn't changed my major to Culinary Management so I went and handled that immediately. I really hope they contact me early next week. Classes will start next month! Please be praying that I get good news from them this weekend or next week. I really don't know what I'll do if I don't get into the program this semester. I can't think about that though. I need to keep a positive attitude and hopefully it will all work out. :)
Well that's what been happening lately. My garden is over growing.. lol. The ground hornets scare the crap out of me every time I go out the door. I made Cake Balls Monday afternoon in anticipation of my Aunt Dee's birthday dinner Wednesday. They were extra yummy for my first try. I'm excited to try different cake/ frosting/ and chocolate combinations next time. My dad's birthday is coming up so maybe I'll make him his favorite next time. :)
I can't wait for my first check to be deposited! I'm going to go watch Wheel of Fortune now and think about making something for dinner. :)
I started cashiering last tuesday afternoon after my computer training and then did 5 hours on the register Wednesday which was pretty tough. I haven't spent that long on my feet in a while.. at least not with out periodical trip from my kitchen to the couch for a break. My feet were a little tired but after an Advil and some of grandma's cooking and I was good as new. Got to spend the night with my cousins and then get some sun the next day. Great day off.
Today was my second full day of cashiering and it was a breeze. My lower back hurt a little around 4 but I pushed through it. I didn't give anyone wrong change and I only forgot to give someone a bag once but I caught him before he was out the day so it was all in all a great day. We have good baggers that show up out of no where when you need them and good managers that can always be reached when there's a problem.
Tomorrow I will be training with the Meal Specialist trainer for Apron's all day. I'll be at the store from 8:30am to 5pm. I am told that the woman is nice but a little demanding so I'm hoping she will be in a good mood tomorrow for me. :) I'm going to get in bed early enough tonight so I can be fully awake in the morning.. and I will be definitely setting the coffee maker up tonight so I can be alert along with awake. ;)
I met the weekday Apron's woman today. Her name is Lisa and she is very nice. She told me a little bit about how she works and how the meals are prepared. I found out that every Publix store makes the same meals day to day. I wish they made desserts but I'm sure they don't. There is a convection/ microwave oven, mini fridge and sink in the Apron's station and you do everything in the station.. including all the prep work. I'm pretty excited to get started.
On a scale of 1 to 10. 10 being the best. I was at a 8.75 when I got home at 5:15pm. That was mainly due to being hungry but after having a snack/ small meal I'm feeling pretty good. Just relaxing on my awesome oversized chair, watching the news and checking my stuff online.
I'm waiting to hear from FSCJ about my Culinary application. I heard from a woman last Friday. I hadn't changed my major to Culinary Management so I went and handled that immediately. I really hope they contact me early next week. Classes will start next month! Please be praying that I get good news from them this weekend or next week. I really don't know what I'll do if I don't get into the program this semester. I can't think about that though. I need to keep a positive attitude and hopefully it will all work out. :)
Well that's what been happening lately. My garden is over growing.. lol. The ground hornets scare the crap out of me every time I go out the door. I made Cake Balls Monday afternoon in anticipation of my Aunt Dee's birthday dinner Wednesday. They were extra yummy for my first try. I'm excited to try different cake/ frosting/ and chocolate combinations next time. My dad's birthday is coming up so maybe I'll make him his favorite next time. :)
I can't wait for my first check to be deposited! I'm going to go watch Wheel of Fortune now and think about making something for dinner. :)
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